~ 63 ~

I sit here 63 days away...63 days away from what? After I clear out my desk, take my pictures off the wall, and hand in those keys, what will I be leaving for? Excitement? Riches? Success? These were all some of the things missing from my desk job, but I don't think they are what I am seraching for next.

When I talk to people about the future, there are two common themes that come up - being wealthy and climbing that corporate ladder. I often wonder if maybe I am too soft spoken, maybe these people legitimately don't hear me; or maybe I am just too different for our worlds to make sense to the other. When I said I am not after money, I honestly meant that. I don't think telling me how to start my own business to help people while making a very health salary is the appropriate response. I don't want to hear about the six figure salaries to be made! Why is this so hard to understand?

I recently made a great friend who, without knowing, has helped me to find a way to figure out what's next. This friend tells about people not by their bank account or their job title, no, he speaks of them by their love for Jesus. So badly I want this to be the first thing said about me! I want people to speak of me like, "I have this friend and she loves Jesus soooo much!"

I have gone in so many circles about the fall. Really the only thing that matters is loving Jesus; I tell people this all the time when they are searching for their own answers - just do whatever you can in order for you to love Jesus even more every day. I just need to find the job I can love Jesus the most with.