Sometimes in life things happen that make you hurt...a lot...and cry all the time. But you have to make the decision to not waste life being sad. You need to push past it and be happy. Being sad is just wasting a beautiful life. Yes, the hurt is still there. Yes, the sadness is still around. But don't dwell on them. The tears will come and let them fall. You enjoyed a beautiful time and had so much fun and it needs to be appreciated and remembered. Don't dwell on it being over. Just remember how much fun it was. Just embrace the many warm and fun memories and know that life is beautiful and can be enjoyed still. You made mistakes but now is the time to learn from them. You were used to fill a void but you have amazing memories from that time. Just remember the fun and the good times and don't dwell on the hurt or life will disappear from you.